parents.

my mother makes me very very very very VERY mad. round of applause mom, you are the only person in this world that can make me this angry and annoyed.

realize

you don't really realize how much you miss someone or something until it's gone for a while but then comes back.

like today, i haven't picked up the guitar in a couple of months, meaning i haven't seen my guitar teacher in that time either. she came today, and i picked up my guitar, and i didn't even realize how much i had missed her and playing those strings.

but she's leaving me soon :/ she's graduating in May, heck yes i'm going to her graduation, she's like a big sister to me. she'll be in Disney World and i'll be here with some old granny of a music teacher. eh well ;)

despise >:)

well, first off, let me tell you i do NOT hate ANYONE.

but COMPLETELY despise? yea, there's ONE person. i honestly cannot stand their face. i want to hit them with several objects in the face, run them over with every possible mode of transportation, then throw them down alligator infested sewers. there was a lot more violence and detail to this, but i don't want to be arrested. >:)

anyway, person of whom i'm talking about, I DESPISE YOU WITH A PASSION. you're probably never ever ever going to read this, which is why i'm being so bold. BUT just wanted to tell you, you're the closest i've ever come to hating someone. that's probably an achievement in your book. congrats.

ps- i despise you.

pps- that picture's not creepy at all....

low expectations

having low expectations is an idea i slowly grow to like. so much less disappointment, and then excitement when you do better than you think! i know there's a lot of scenerios where this just doesn't work, and maybe i shouldn't even think about thinking this way, but i mean, i'm so tired of everything i'm working for for the future. i want to be doing something for the present. not stressing myself out because "i want to be successful". the only thing motivating me to keep stressing are my parents. they'd probably disown me if they even read this bahahaha.

i want to dream, and reach for those stars everyone keeps talking about. actress, model, fashion designer, singer, photographer, etc etc. i want to be FAMOUS, i want to EXPLORE the world and have FUN doing it. i don't want to be stuck in a doctor's office diagnosing patients.

eh.

ps- 5 gum is the best gum ever. why? because of its forever long juiciness and amazing flavor.

time for some change?

i decided that internet explorer has crossed over to the retarded side, where they have no cookies. so what does a internet using girl do in a dillemma such as this? why go get a new BROWSER of course! i have decided to try this famous "google chrome" of which everyone speaks. i like it. i don't like it. we'll see.

You Deserve It.

EVERYONE deserves a compliment, so go ahead! Treat yourself to one, two, three? Just keep clicking!

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TWLOHA

To Write Love On Her Arms.

YES

I AM HAPPY

winner

ahh i forgot how good it feels to win

i felt like i hadn't achieved anything in years, awards, elections, anything. especially after entering high school, i felt like there was nothing i was the best at. i had no specialty. i really still don't, but i did win a school election for reporter which boosted up my happiness scale ^.^

i have a feeling next year is going to be great! i'm touching the light at the end of the tunnel today. i may just be out of that tunnel actually.

light

i'm going back to my old optimistic self.

i'm seeing that light at the end of the tunnel again. i guess i've realized that moping in your dark hole won't do you any good, and to reach that light again you're going to have to work and get through, it may take time, it may take patience, and it may be really really hard. But in the end, you'll reach that light and bask in it's radiating beams.

there IS a light at the end of every tunnel.

like a bird, time flies

it's amazing how fast time is going by. summer's almost here, so close.

life has been so hectic that i can barely squeeze in time for a blog. i should be sleeping right now, basking in the warm sun in the land of dreams, not worrying about a huge test tomorrow which i might die in the middle of. it's a ceizure causing test, not even exaggerating. my mind was not built to retain all that information at the same time.

is it possible for your brain to just explode? i know that "research studies have proved that the brain" blah blah blah. but still, maybe there CAN be too much information. because i feel like if i add one more piece of information in my brain i may just go into a coma.

education is so stressful, why can't we just all work at McDonald's and be fat and happy?

oh sunshine...

i love the sun, especially during the spring. It's like it's teasing us with its warm rays, showing us how close summer is.

yesterday i got a bit too much sun at an 8 hour tennis tournament. There is no shade in that place so i just slapped on the tanning lotion over and over. Not enough though, I am compeltley and utterly burnt. My face, arms and legs and I don't even want to know what my tennis shoe tan line is going to look like.

Now I'm all over google looking for answers, how do you prevent a sunburn from peeling? Because that would be terrible right now.