bittersweet

why do the people you love the most, hurt you the most?

risky business

i'm taking "risks"
i'm not over thinking something i type and taking ages to decide whether to send it or not
i just think "if they were my close friend would i send this?"
and i almost always would.
so i almost always do. now THEY can over think what i say.
the weight's off my shoulders and onto theirs
and one day they'll realize what i have realized
and pass over their weights
and it'll go on and on
those weights
always teaching a lesson

butterflies

butterflies.

i haven't had them since middle school
i thought they weren't coming back
just a silly lovesick phase, a preteen infatuation side effect

but i'm in highschool now and...

when i think of you they come alive--at first i didn't know why
when i looked at you they would flutter
and when you hugged me they would fly
when you talked to me they danced around
when you smiled at me my heart would pound

sensations i haven't felt in a while

it's your fault you make me smile

it's true,
i like you.

blind

am i not being obvious enough?



or are you too blind to see?



that i'm talking about you.

that's cool.

oh hi "best friend", thanks for inviting me! oh wait, you didn't.

my nothing blog

well technically, it's something. but to me, it's nothing. i don't know what to write about really, because i'm kind of ...dull today. so here are a few random things in my head right now.

-i'm so sad that the year is over, yet so happy that it is. i don't want to graduate high school, but summer is the bomb! also hate how there's no texting over seas. shoot me.

-silicone phone cases SUCK. especially the ones bought from ebay from Hong Kong.

-i'm hoping nothing's wrong with my thyroid. i'm getting fat.

-i like my new purse. it took FOREVER to decide to buy it, but i like it!

-memories are love. picture taking? also love.

-the people i want to like me never do, the one's i don't do. twisted isn't it?

-i should be wearing my retainer. ~rebel~

-new clothes are the best thing ever

-i have a long wishlist on my phone

-i have an amazing ability. it's called procrastination. i should NOT be doing this right now.

-this list is longer than i thought it would be

technology

ahhhhh i cannot but help love thee technology. with your ability to join people in other states onto one computer screen (aka videochat) you tighten the bonds of friendship, disconnected? i think not! this blog is where i profess my love to you inventor of webcam/video chat. i love thee.

fire.

every single time something incredibly fun comes up i can't go because "we have to go to Houston." screw you Houston, i hope you burn down. oh, and parents, screw you too.

before my wrath....

after my wrath. burn Houston, burn.

slipping

time is slipping through my fingers. i just can't seem to grab a hold of it. everything's moving so fast, so much is changing.

i don't like it.

replaced

have i been replaced? i believe so. well i miss you, and i hope you take me back, because i liked being your best friend.

i believe i can fly

it's nice to have everything out in the open. no weight on your shoulders. peace, serenity. i'm so glad i got everything out. i'm weightless, gravity can't hold me down anymore.

i am weightless.
i am free.
i am anti-gravity.
and i can fly.