a real rebel

god, i hate and love doing rebellious things. i love the feeling i get, but i hate the feeling i get. i feel guilty and my stomach twists up, but i feel excitement and adventure too. thank god rebellion only happens once in a while.

great night, flashing lights.

great night :) it's an amazing time to be an NDN. i love the feeling of being on the field, close up to all the action taking pictures of everything. Seeing everyone all in purple, filled with spirit. Friends, lights, cameras. I love this life, high school, social center of the universe. I don't want it to end. Ever.

SPARSILE!

"dreams become a reality when you believe"

i like the word sparsile :)



definition: "a star not belonging to a constellation"


i feel like it defines who i am, or at least hope to be.


one of a kind, a unique shining individual.

goodbye summer '10.

it's the last day of summer, all the amazing memories and fun times are all coming to an end. at exactly 12 AM, summer will officially be over. we get to go back to the daily routine life, which i don't mind, but i'll miss waking up whenever i want. i'll miss making spontaneous plans at any time, or staying up till 4 in the morning just talking to people. i mean, i'm ready for the year i guess. excited for some classes, dreading others. it's going to be a tough year, i just have that feeling. i'm not excited for this year like the others, i feel like this year, my parents are air tight. choking me so that i won't be able to do anything. i think i'm just scared of this year because after it will be my last year in high school. scared that i may lose close friends. i'm tired and stressed already and it hasn't even begun. i'm going to miss the carefree sunny days. i'm just going to freaking miss this.

i'm nervous. i'm excited. i'm scared. i'm nostalgic. i'm a teenager. and i don't want summer to end.

false.

i hate it when people are themselves, all nice and wonderful, but then their "friend" comes along, and totally transforms that person into a stuck up, rude stranger.

it's not your fault, it's your friend. please stay away from her. but how would you know? i'm never going to tell you and i doubt anyone else will.

who cares?

it's silly over thinking texts. like if you should text the opposite gender first, what you should say, blah blah blah. just act natural and do what you want. whatever happens happens!

protect me

you wrap around me creating a barrier
between me and the outside world
my protector from the dark
my warmth from the cold
you help me drift to sleep
full of comfort
my comforter.

sweet music :)

it feels so good playing my guitar again, it really takes you to another place.

but not playing it for so long, i've fogotten a bunch of chords. i'm trying to teach myself everything again, i refuse to go back to square one. REFUSE.

home

it feels SO good to be back home, i feel like i'm me again, life is the way it was, everything's happy and sunny, i'm ready for life it's moving forward! my house smells like home, everything is just saying "you used/touched this everyday" I LOVE MY HOUSE AND HOME AND LIFE.

screw you.

it's my life and my future. i control it, I'M the one studying and working hard, i think i've earned the right to choose what i want to be.

goodbye.

goodbyes are stupid and i hate them. life would be so much better without goodbyes.