Jul 31, 2010

Beautiful Stranger

A little change of words to "You're Beautiful" by James Blunt, to describe my experience.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
He smiled at me on the bus.
He was there all alone.
I wanted to talk to him so bad
and get the number to his phone.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, he caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
I prayed he'd talk to me because I'm,
so freaking shy,
And I don't think that I'll see him again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Jul 11, 2010

FYI

Just thought I'd inform you that....


SPAIN WON.

tired

sometimes helping friends is frustrating and stressful. but i keep doing it because that's what friends do, we help each other through things no matter what. no matter how crazy it's driving me, i'm going to stay there, helping you out. even if we're going in circles, i'll be there helping you. i'm your shoulder to lean on, and no matter how sore my shoulder gets, or how heavy your head gets, i'll be there.

Jul 7, 2010

World Cup Excitement

WOW, i have NEVER experienced this much EXCITEMENT and craziness about soccer! EVER. This is one of the most crazy exciting night i've ever had. Let's start out from the beginning shall we?

Well me and my brothers are really pumped up about this game, i mean Spain vs Germany? HECK YEA, but let me say this, this is our first World Cup to see, but it's hard not to get caught up in this country's excitement! My parents want to go out, but we HAVE to see this game! So they said we'll go to Sweifieh (this shopping strip with lots of cafes [that have TVs]) So we agree, and we go there and look for a spot, we saw a few seats in some cafes but NO, my dad's HUNGRY and wants Shawermah (this meat sandwich thing). Angry and frustrated we walk there, get some sandwiches and walk back to the strip. The place is FLOODED with people. There is not one spot in ANY of the several cafes and restaurants, packs and packs of people were surrounding the TV's, there were literally HUNDREDS of people there. We kept looking, but no place to sit and watch, there were a lot of almost goals and every time they thought it was a goal, all of these hundreds of people were shouting and chanting "GOALLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN! (or) GERMANY GERMANY!!!" It was INSANE. We're really annoyed there're no spots though and we leave to go find some cafĂ© somewhere that has it, because my grandparents aren’t subscribed to that channel, so going home isn’t an option at all. We’re in the car telling my dad to drive faster and looking into passing by cafes and restaurants that have TV’s, almost every store in the city is closed, EVERYONE’S watching the game. After passing by five places that had space and televisions which they kept passing up, my dad decides he wants dessert. We exploded. The game’s on, we’re missing it, and you want CAKE?! Of course, we can’t control anything so he stops, takes FOREVER and gets cake. Then we argue about where to go, and I yell “POPEYES. I saw it, they had a TV, it’s fairly empty, let’s GO NOW.” We drive to Popeye’s (btw, Popeye’s here isn’t like in America, it’s WAY classier, all glass and marble, all restaurant looking and fancy) and my brothers practically sprint to the television, and we sit down and watch the game, we missed 55 minutes, having seen only bits and pieces, but we sat and watched and ordered some food. The game was intense, 0-0 was the score, no goals yet, we’re all sitting, nibbling at our food, too focused to actually eat and then GOAL! Spain made a goal! Popeye’s ERUPTED, chairs fell because people were jumping from their seats, everyone was clapping and slapping backs, including me and my brothers. So much spirit I swear. We watch until the game is over, Spain won. I felt bad for the poor German guys though :/ they looked pretty upset. But oh well, anyway we leave Popeye’s to go to the World Cup vendor on the street. I buy a Spain scarf and my brothers buy “Spain” hats (or so we thought). People everywhere (so many cars) are driving everywhere, waving the Spanish flag out of their cars and honking their horns. My brothers of course have to get into it, put on their “Spanish” hats and stand out the window and go around chanting and yelling “SPAIN! SPAIN! YEAAA!” We pass by these CRAZY kids doing the same but standing on the side of the street, and this one seriously excited kid is chasing our car and shaking and slapping hands with my brother until he got a little too far from his friends, his face was PRICELESS. You don’t understand how much we were laughing tonight. We’re on the way home and I’m like “GOD, I wish I got that kid on video! His FACE! That kid is INSANE!” Then I turn to my brother and really LOOK at his hat. I realized it was the German hat. I just stared at him and CRACKED UP laughing. “You IDIOT XD You’re yelling ‘YEA SPAIN’ and you’re wearing the hat for Germany! XD” I can tell you that my brothers were embarrassed. So we turn around to go return the hat, but we can’t. Final sale kind of thing. So they buy the Spain scarves and I wrap it around their hats, and they continue to stick their heads out the window yelling and screaming and honking with the other cars. We passed by the insane kids again, and this time they STOP our car, come over to our window and yell and give high fives and tackle each other, we start to drive off and this kid grabs my brother’s hat and throws it at him and the insane kid starts chasing our car and slaps my brothers hand before going back. We went around three times tonight. There’s no way I could forget this night, we all laughed SO hard, my brothers were insane and so was the rest of Jordan. I can say my first World Cup is not going to be my last, not at ALL.

Jul 3, 2010

fascinating!

now this might seem...weird. but i want to rant about it.

i find guys fascinating, and not in a "i'm so obsessed with guys" and extremely attracted sort of way. i think it's because i've never had a boyfriend and never hung out with many guys in middle and elementary so i don't know guys too well. my parent's overprotection didn't help much. i kind of expect them all to be kind of cold and such and when they do the tiniest normal thing to everyone else i'm surprised or over think it. i don't give guys enough human being credit XD they just fascinate me, i love trying to figure out and discover who each guy is, they're so complex each is different. i mean with girls we're all just a big blob really. they're all alike, so dull -.- but guys i guess because they don't talk much about things so you discover something new about them every conversation, unlike girls who blurt out their whole life story in one conversation. i don't know, i'm so WEIRD -.- i think i'm a psychologist in the making, i like figuring people out and discovering their personalities and knowing their stories. i kind of want to be a psychologist, but i'm probably too emotional for that job. one sad story and i'll be pouring down tears.

Jul 2, 2010

freedom

the only thing making me want to stay here is the freedom, i can do anything i want, i'm FREE like any other teenager, even freer. why? there's no fear of terrible people taking a life without any rights. no murderers, kidnappers, rapists. i can go out at night by myself with some friends and grab a taxi and head to the mall. there's no fear here. i kind of wonder why, maybe because it's a religious country and no one would even think of doing it here. i think that's the problem with America, it's so diverse in a way that it's filled with terrible immoral human beings. it's a mix country with every race and religion found on this planet. diversity isn't a bad thing, it opens you up to other people in this world, but its also a big threat because there are tons of crazy heartless souls out there.

i'm going to miss this short taste of freedom, i'm not sure how i'll be when i get back. will i be annoyed and frustrated at how locked up and constrained i am? or will i reminisce the great times i had and just live accepting where i am. i'm leaning toward the latter because life's too short to be angry and frustrated all the time.